Tuesday, August 31, 2010
@ 10:46 PM
After so long i finally wake up like so early in the morning, just to go school for a 1 hour lesson. Before going back to WSSS for teachers' day.
Well its pretty to see some juniors and students saying hi with a enthu waving of hands. Its great to see those teachers who taught me well and i wish to be like them someday. Got to thanks Kel for the ride to school.
Celebrations over study time over at BPP mac. Got so tempted and went to catch a movie at causeway. STEP UP 3!! Its cool and nice. and of course with beautiful which is even nicer =]
gotta study for friday's paper instead of tomorrow's paper. HAHA. CIAOs
P/S study hard yea rebecca, you promised.
@ 12:21 AM
another day spent studying in school. Trying to get those damn words and images into my head. STRIVE HARD!
after speaking to her, my heart felt better somehow. Its like i'm more calm and clearer. However i still have something to decide on. Wish me luck!
I'm procrastinating my studies and sleeping time. If you do not know what is the meaning of procrastination, a picture should help alot.
Monday, August 30, 2010
@ 1:16 AM
It feels like i am giving you stress. I know its tough on you. I'm sorry for creating this mess unknowingly, i could have contain the situation better. Regardless of the answer, i won't change the way i treat you, look at you or talk to you.
After thinking for some time on my way home, i find that i am pretty abnormal. I have split personalities which i am totally aware of. But sometimes the personalities seems to mix and match themselves. Up till now i have 6. Crappy, Stern, Lax, Sunshine outgoing, Unstable. The 6th personality seems to be the Random with a mixture of the 5 personalities.
I do not know how to explain. Prolly when i am able to explain, I can make you feel confident about me and you will know of the change. Until then you won't be hearing these words "i really like you, can you be my girlfriend?" not that i don't like you anymore. Its just me who want to realized which is the IVAN whom you like and will entrust to.
When i am ready i will propose to you in a different and special manner. Confidently saying these words out "I REALLY LIKE YOU, CAN YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?"
The 6 or 7 Ivan will fall apart and reform back into the single true Ivan.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
@ 5:44 PM
How we became like this was just a amazing in fact, we had so much in difference and similarities are like a handful? Well Thats not a problem here, we are both strangers 5-6months back, we only started talking like 2 months back despite knowing that we are from wakeboarding and from SP. We both know that we are single and we just started talking like normal friends does. Its this feeling that develops between us at some point of time and we like that feeling alot. Its like comfortable and nice. Maybe its just a feeling for a very good friend, but to me right now, i don't feel like that feeling is meant for good friends, its a feeling for a good relationship to start. We both like each other thats for sure i know.
I like you too, alot. This alot is not enough to say that i will die for you and stuffs yet. We are not like childhood BFF and then feelings start to come into the picture, We have alot to learn from each other and know from each other. I believe someday i will have this feeling that i would die for you. Right now, i will take this chance that we both have a same liking for each other to know more about you. Cause i know that right now at this moment, i like you alot and i have not regret spending so much time with you. In times to come i will too not regret spending these much time with you and more time to come.
Give ourselves a chance to know each other and let whatever feelings that will develop, develops and grow. Take things slowly and take each step at a time, i believe if we give each other a chance, time is not a problem. (Unless one day i used up all my tender loving care and surprises and someone else scoop me away. HAHAHA)
Friday, August 27, 2010
@ 12:49 AM
Wa so i must read your blog msn you a offline message before i get a post dedicated for me?
Well, i have lots of things to share with you too, but because we drifted apart and even after we seems to have become a normal friend from a close sibling, i want to tell you so much stuffs, just that my personality is those that 拖泥带水。 I dunno how to tell you and explain how i feel about your relationship with Yanming, I dunno how to tell him and like declare some stuffs at that point. Plus you know i don't like alot of ppl in PKS who likes to find trouble with me, and they are like close friends of those friends of Jeremy and YM, so i decided to fade out of the scene without a word. Its rather selfish of me to do so, but at that point of time, i felt that what i did was necessary. (until now i still dunno if i was in that situation now what should i do)
Its only recently that my life starts afresh and i try to solve my problems and prevent some misunderstandings.
I have been real busy and times when i am is like last minute nothing on and i will use that time to catch back my sleeps and rest my worn out body. There are times i wanted to ask you out and watch movie like we used to do movie marathon. I rememeber Spiderman 3 at tampines mall and another movie. However, at that time having decided to stay out the cliques of friends picture i was resolved to stop finding you people again.
I know how feelings grow unexpectedly and i won't stop you from being together with YM, i will in turn wish you to be happy and have a healthy relationship with often quarreling and breaking down but in the end everything is resolved with you growing up. I dunno why in my eyes you are always that cute never grow up girl who i just want to take care of like a daughter or sister.
HAHAHA you know from the start i like any girl is not just base on their outer looks right? Its the personality of the person which is more important, the looks and other bonues are what help them attract me to know them more. AHAHHA. I won't say she is damn pretty, but i can say in my eyes she is the prettiest. My taste is definitely good, hahaha. Its still the same nice when i befriend you, or rather accept this friendship made to me by you.
Back then in that junior camp at Changi park there, i remember how i was the sai gang warrior planning games to being a night guard at night to make sure people dont' fight. And this fat retard face guy try to act hero and you dislike him. You caught my attention as a quite pitiful girl when that shit faced guy always call you and linling "mei". HAHA i forgot his name but only remember how we always call him that fat army shit face guy. How i actually stole his friendster photo and made another account with his name and his picture and making a joke out of it.
The only thing i will regret about our friendship is, i took care of you too much, never let you grow up. You are now, which is good. Well if you remember i keep secret safer than i keep my promise, HAHAHA. i give good advice which it can help others alot but not myself, HAHAHA. So if you have anything you need to tell me or share with me, don't feel shy or whatsoever. I will try to help you as much as i can (i seen and hear alot of stuffs for my age already so i am like a encyclopedia, nothing much is able to shock or surprise me). Remember anything under the sun also can share with me.
No Ukitake picture for you cause i prefer someone else and that is Kurosaki Ichigo in his hollow form, i like cool characters. HAHA. Not to mention Grimmjow too! When i look at the photo above, it reminds me of the impression when i first saw you in the camp. Emo like that. HAHA. Now you are like TALKATIVE! So different. HAHA.
Ok chance approve hahaha.
Hi Jo, Nice knowing you too. I am Ivan Allizwell Ho, You call me anything that suits you =]
Thursday, August 26, 2010
@ 1:10 AM
I'm glad i just say it out =]
I got 'sack'. i went to do video shooting for halloween scare crew for visitors during the halloween at night safari, so i nv go work. Then i received a message say this sunday i don't need work and i not getting my pay any sooner. SADED!
After having a sleepless night AGAIN, i decided to break the news to her, too bad, she had a sleepless night and saw a loophole i left in FB. HAHAHA, it didn't turn out the romantic way i had picture in mind. It turns out the opposite way, awkward situation. But it is still fine. HAHA.
5pm i went for make up for some halloween thingy, and my shooting of scene was at 9plus. Had a tough time with my character and make ups. Its abit fucked up for me to be a hypocrite tonight during the filming session. Whats worst is the removing of make up. Its irritating. I can't show any pictures here of my role, but i can only say "GO NIGHT SAFARI DURING HALLOWEENS!"
Felt bad for not able to sms her and had to keep her waiting till 10pm in the dark dark scary SP. i guess i can secure a 9min for 2.4km run. I sprinted from business block all the way to the main library. Sent her home.
I really like that hug, i like that fragrant, i like that smile, i like you =]
I promise to do that tutorial and 1 past year paper, 11am need show Doc. Jaya. Looks like i need to wake up early to do it.
P/S busy with schoolworks nowadays so Jo, your post i shall do it for you another day=] i want post KUROSAKI ICHIGO picture. hahaha!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
@ 9:48 PM
Its been a wasted day going to school to try to study. Ended up in the library reading newspaper.feel like something is missing until i'm back home infront of my laptop webcaming with you. You were on my mind the whole day. Dunno why i got a feeling this feeling will evolve to something that i have not felt for 4 years. I don't dare to face the answer, can you tell e how to deliver the answer to you?
or
are you feeling the same way as i am now?
@ 12:46 AM
I'm starting to like you more and more. I dunno what is the feeling. All i know is that i want to protect you, i don't wish to see you hurt or anything. I want to see you smile, i want to be the one who always manage to cheer you up and say alliszvell.
While crossing the road i pull you back cause of a turning car, how i wish i didn't let it go. I dunno why i didn't want to let it go but i did. The hesitation is there.
How i wish the bus would just break down right there at that moment, how i wish the bus journey was like around the world long.
Someone once broke up with me after 1 month, telling me this "you got to know the feeling is just a way you feel for a close friend or you like that someone" I fell for that someone after we became close friends, however the feeling of wanting to protect the person so much, be with that person so much wasn't as strong as now.
Though i made this mistake so many times, treating a person real good and the person treat me like a close friend, i ended up falling for that person and turns out just the opposite of what i imagine and wanted it to be.
I don't want another mistake that i had made 4years ago. I hope you will be able to wait till i got the answer and tell you.
I can strongly tell you right now, i like you alot alot, i want to keep you safe from harm, i want to take your nightmare and give you my dreams, i want to hold you tightly in my arms, i want to rest on your head while you resting on my shoulders, i want to tell you so badly but i just can't summon enough courage.
I'm happy that i could spent as much time as i can with you, i'm happy that all these while i had you as my friend, i'm happy to be able to see you when sending you back, when you are working, when i am webcaming.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
@ 11:58 PM
REBECCA this is for you!
Sometimes the things you wish for you get. Thus, be careful when you wish!!!!!!
This is priceless!
A married couple in their early 60s was celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant.
Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table.
She said, 'For being such an exemplary married couple and for being loving to each other for all this time, I will grant youeach a wish.'
The wife answered, 'Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband.'
The fairy waved her magic wand and - poof! - two ticketsfor the Queen Mary II appeared in her hands.
The husband thought for a moment: 'Well, this is allvery romantic, but an opportunity like this will never come again. I'm sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me.'
The wife and the fairy were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish.
So the fairy waved her magic wand and poof!.....the husband became 92 years old.
The moral of this story: Men who are ungrateful and idiots should remember that fairies are female.....
@ 12:48 AM
Start studying for my exams already, i am so determined to do well this time. Another thing is i am trying so so so hard to not smoke while studying this time round. How successful i dunno.
Got myself a new job rather lax and have nice food. I'm currently working at MBS!! Marina Bay Sands!!
I am not in love with you definitely, i'm just falling in love with you.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
@ 4:58 PM
Its the 7th month and i don't really have that special feeling of taking extra caution in things that i do.
I still hang out late, i still stay up late and many more i forgotten.
Lets touch on Thursday first, Morning went for training, was rather tired for the training and went for a swim. Halloween scare crew briefing and next week is the camp!!! AWESOME! a halloween scare crew camp sure got night walk and its the 7th month! Went for FYP then some YOG torch thingy. Ended up home late.
Friday morning went to lavender to have breakfast then some hobby shop for FYP stuffs. Down to chinatown for some FYP stuffs before going back to school. PISSED with you motherfucker, no respect at all for me. forget about what you did for now. went to ESKI Bar to chill with some bunch of people. Tonight was not as awesome as previous times. 1 bottle of V.S.O.P and a jug of long island plus JAGER BOMBS!!!!
On my way home, i hid the bottle of vsop in some metering unit on the 12th floor, a floor above mine. For some reason i had to hide it and retrieve it the next day. I walked to the end of the corridor for the stairs down, when turning to the stairways i saw this small bicycle 4 wheeled for kids in the middle of the pathway moved abit. while the rest of the bikes are chained to the handle bars and stuffs. I was taken aback!! Then continue walking home like nothing happen. Trust me i was not drunk.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
@ 12:22 PM
Well its been some time since i last post anything. Just being real lazy hahaha.. Thiau pub recently and lost my iphone while cabbing to my friend's place after drinking alot. Well heartache of course.Someone requested for a joke to be posted up and here it goes. hopefully it will cheer you up a little.There was once a very good barber in NEW YORK , who gave Free Haircuts to
everybody who came into his shop to have their haircuts.
One day a florist went to him for a haircut.
After the cut, he wanted to pay the barber, but the barber replied:
'It's alright, I cannot accept money from you. I am doing community
service.'
The Florist was happy and left the shop.
The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, there was a thank
you card and a dozen roses waiting at his door
A policeman went for a haircut and he also wanted to pay the barber after
the cut.
But the barber replied: 'I cannot accept money from you. I am doing
community service.'
The cop was happy and left the shop.
The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, there was a thank
you card and a dozen donuts waiting at his door.
A Indian software engineer went for a haircut and he also wanted to pay the
barber after the cut.
But the barber replied: 'I cannot accept money from you. I am doing
community service.'
The Indian software engineer was very happy and left..
The next morning when the barber went to open his shop, guess what he
found there....... ......
Can you guess?
Come on, think like a Indian. ....
have you got the answer ............ ?????
come on ............
guess
guess
guess
A dozen Indians waiting for free haircuts!
