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Thursday, September 30, 2010
@ 10:50 PM

Monday.

Training in school before going to Queensway with Sarah to settle POLY50 running singlets. It was raining like hell and we just walk to IKEA for some cheesecake. It's nice thats why. Bought some and went to SGH to find someone. Pass her some cakes and chit chat before going to Jurong Point to have dinner with Nazi! Sorry people very late agian HAHA. Thank you Julien for the friendship band=] Back to school to crash ICE camp day 0.

Tuesday. Day 1.

Over slept in CSCC club and report in late. It was a pretty boring day 1 running around T1 to T10 aimlessly. (I do not respect all the president of sports club whom i know in these 3 years). Fucked up people gets to become president of sports club every year.

Wednesday. Day 2.

Events slightly improved but blah blah, its not enjoyable at all without someone. Stood up the whole night and slept for 1 hour before going for training.

Thursday. Day 3.

Woke up after 1 hour of sleep, went for wakeboarding training hoping to see someone but hopes are dashed when i don't see her. Went back to camp and then some photo taking session. BORING! Only thing shiok is kena tiger balm all over the face and nipples. Swallowed some and felt weird in the tummy, menstral panadol also. rub toothpaste and tiger balm all over my face and then onto Za Woo face. Ended up burning my eyes and tears. Thats the summary for ICE.

BORING EH!



Monday, September 27, 2010
@ 1:45 AM


Its going 2am and here i am blogging and watching random stuffs on the net. I need to wake up at 6am to pack my bag for camp, meet somebody else where to pass some money before going to school for training. I gotta get panda eyes soon. Real black eyes.

Missed F1 this year cause i spent everyday these few days in mount elizabeth with my grandma. Tix wasted but well, grandma more important.

I ain't really eager to attend ICE camp as much now due to some reasons, in fact only 1 reason. However i will still attend it but not with much of the crazy ivan? i join as a camper to be able to spend more time with that person, play with that person. however situation forbids us to.

Nevertheless Hitler is going back to ICE Camp! Nazi is surviving with a few members but we are invading the prison break!



@ 1:08 AM

MANILA, Philippines – A Philippine court has sentenced a father to 14,400 years in prison after he was convicted of the near daily rape of his teenage daughter over the course of a year.

A trial court originally condemned the man, a rickshaw driver, to die in March 2006 after he was convicted of 360 counts of rape _ allegedly carried out during the year his wife worked in Hong Kong.

But the Court of Appeals in Manila commuted the sentence to 40 years for each count, according to a court decision obtained Friday. The defendant can still appeal to the Supreme Court. It was not clear if he would.

The then-13-year-old victim, now 22, said her ordeal began in January 2001, when her mother left for work in Hong Kong as a domestic helper and left her three children with their father in Los Banos, a township just south of Manila.

She said he forced her to have intercourse with him almost every day, except when she had her period or on holidays, when he would make her perform oral sex.

The ordeal only ended after she and her siblings spent a vacation with their mother's relatives. Reluctant to return to her father at the end of the vacation, she broke down and told her family about the abuse. Her mother returned home from Hong Kong and helped her file the case.

The appeals court affirmed the lower court's dismissal of the defense's contention that the man's wife made up the allegations to get custody of the children and marry a foreigner.




Friday, September 24, 2010
@ 11:44 PM

Thursday instead of land training it was a cycling session with the Wakeboarders. Met at pasir ris then we rented a bike each and cycle to changi for breakfast. Cheryl and sarah went to look for us for a breakfast and they are off. So the rest of us continue cycling to ECP.

Due to the lack of time i wasn't able to go nearer to the runway and take pictures! Partly cause it was raining too. It was so heavy we had to make a few stops and hell yeah it was fun.

Cause i was drenched and my pouch wasn't water proof my extra clothes were wet too, had to go home and change before going to Mount Elizabeth hospital. Visited my grandma.

Well the whole of friday was spent with my grandma too.

Not staying over at Alji house with Jiawei, he sure stay up whole night L4D or DOTA. i going to visit my grandma tmr again=]

It hurts me to see her suffer like that,



Tuesday, September 21, 2010
@ 8:26 PM

Went for class lunch and guess what only like 8 people turn up. Its a well fed day, 1 curry pizza set, 1 curry baked rice set, 4 drumlets, 1 choco brownie with vanilla ice cream. total damage for me alone is $25.

Arcade with only Rizwan and Hajar. Play some old games and i lose touch with alot of games already.

Back to school for FYP. tomorrow FYP 8am!!



Monday, September 20, 2010
@ 9:17 PM

Went for rehearsal for night safari scare crew. its a freaking long day, 10am i reached and left at 8pm. Changed in character temporarily which is much easier and fun than my previous one. At least i do not have to partner a asshole who only thinks for himself and bring himself up like some arrogant guy who flirts around with girls only.

Be sure to go night safari during October. you stand a chance to see IVAN haha.



Sunday, September 19, 2010
@ 1:03 AM

So i didn't had a good night sleep after yesterday volunteer work at Holland Ave. I didn't sleep the whole night till like 5.30am, woke up at 6am to morning Bianca, before falling back to sleep at 6.30am, woke up at 6.45am to morning call Wirda. Well my alarm for myself is 7am. So i didn't sleep and wash up and breakfast at 7.20am. I was early but cause i waited for late comers that overslept and ended up not attending, i was late.

Cab ride was fucked up i swear.

kayak to a nearby shore and picked up rubbish(CIP), Pictures are in my FB. only a handful, Then kayak to another distance place and back to People Association. Its damn tiring for me today!

Chiong to Holland Ave for Volunteer thingy. My thoughts will be screened on TV either on 24oct or 2nov, so i lazy say here. I ended at 11.30pm and here i am home. i am shagg!!!



Saturday, September 18, 2010
@ 1:27 AM

Today happily relax wake up watch a random movie, play dota, slowly make my way to bath. Not feeling hungry so i didn't eat breakfast. I just felt that something is amiss so i checked my phone calender which is display on the screen. 5pm to do volunteer work at Holland Ave, when i check the time its 4.30pm. Panick to the max, faster dry hair chiong out and to realise i am able to reach on the dot and am the first to reach among 5 people.

Pathetic i had to dabao mixed vegetable rice and eat as i walk to the house.

Unpacking was hell of a time, Theres alot to unpack cause the people of that house keeps alot of unnecessary stuffs and alot of things which has sentiment values in them. Its a 2 bedroom kind of house so its rather packed and dusty. its a tiring day and its 12 when i left there in a cab.

Tomorrow wa even longer day, morning going for a beach cleaning up CIP with some wakeboarding people and then to holland ave house again for the volunteering thingy for CHANNEL 5. I will be screened on first episode and second episode of season 2 renovate. HAHAHA. i'm on TV!! remember to catch me on TV. HAHA.



Friday, September 17, 2010
@ 2:23 PM

Stucked at home, no to ask to go with. Thought of going to repair laptop with huimin, but guess the weather is making her comfortable to stay home. Well i guess thats the reason Kel's still asleep too. WHERE TO GO AND KILL TIME!?!



Thursday, September 16, 2010
@ 10:40 PM

Its finally a rest for me, Today i had my last paper for the semester!!

I lose a friend, who doesn't deserve to even have a friend.

Today i finally wakeboard for the first time. YEA!

Today i am dead beat.

Today i am trying to be happy =]

Well wakeboarding for the first time isn't like so wow to me. I dunno why i feel that if speed was faster i could do better. I prefer to learn things in fast pace. Prolly cause i got the basic abit faster and i paid $40 for 15min. EXPENSIVE!!! Going on to the boat on empty stomach is no no. Riding with huimin with empty stomach also a big NONO. HAHA

Dinner at Hougang pepper lunch. I controlled my diet!



@ 12:07 AM

As much as i wish that i can ignore you and drown my sorrows with alcohol and stuffs. I still hope you will give me a call, drop me a text, ask me out. I want the truth yet i can't handle the truth. I have never learn to accept the truths standing infront of me. I want to scream, i so fucking want to scream so loud that everything will crumble under my roar. I so want to punch everything down till no building or structure is taller than me. I want to hug you so tightly again. I just need to feel loved and cared by someone.

Can you lie to me? My heart can't take it. I dunno how long i can accept this truth till. I've been telling myself i must be strong infront of you, i can't let you know i am so easily beaten down. I lost the motivation to stay strong. You were my motivation, now i lost you. My heart sank with tears tears dripping down everytime i see your face, everytime i think of your face.

I just need alittle support from you, but i dunno how to get it from you now. I'm not tired of trying, i am not tired of getting the same answer, but i am tired and scare of getting the same feeling all the time.

i want to talk to you, i want to see you, i want to do so much things with you, but i don't want to feel like i am bugging you, i am stressing you, i am forcing myself on you. I dunno what i want also. please do not give up on me during this period of time. i will suck it up and be strong but i need you to be there to help me tide this through.



Wednesday, September 15, 2010
@ 8:17 PM

So much for being friends for so long huh. You don't deserve any friends, you don't deserve to be anyone's friend. Drop your fucking act. I dunno how the hell am i going to stand your fucking face and attitude any longer. Once this shit is over, you go your fucking way. And that 2 headed shit too. Fucking good at saying things behind each other back and look like a neutral party infront of us. great acting skills.

alright you people just had your ways. I am fucking through with all this shits. FUCK



Tuesday, September 14, 2010
@ 8:26 PM


Suppose to study at 1 plus till evening time. however, a changed of plan and ended up at beautiful's BFF cousin house. Wasn't productive so imma going to stay up abit later and study.

This is for you beautiful and me, we gonna control our diet! HAHA. i won't 'xianqi' you de la. HAHA



Monday, September 13, 2010
@ 4:01 PM



Beautiful, i just wanna tell you even if its a zillion and two times now, i really like you alot.

Whatever it is i will be strong for you, i will not let you down. The promised i made i will fulfill it.

If you are going to fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession. my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I'm a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I'm with you, the way I'll text you in the mornings hoping you have a great day. You're falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things i say, and the way i blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite thinking that it is impossible.

L.E.T.M.E.B.E.Y.O.U.R.L.A.S.T



Sunday, September 12, 2010
@ 4:24 AM

Met up with beautiful and went to Don's place to study. things regarding don's place will be posted in another blog. Try finding! HAHA

So after we left Don's place, i went to night safari at 10am without sleeping a wink last night. rehearsal for Halloween night was tormenting for my mind and body. I hope they will make amends to my costume. This time the make up was worst than first time. i can't elaborate much on Halloween night part.

Right after rehearsal went home bath and felt refresh for steamboat buffet dinner. Celebrating Brian's birthday and its so great to go out with raymond, Joey, Brian and Yong Ting. Especially when the joker Raymond weekend book out for NS.

Dunno how many mugs of tiger drank, 2 bottle of red wine. Everything finished and home. Its a great place with great people to hang out to chill and chit chat. Now i am real tired waiting for hair to dry. With the red wine in me, its so easy to have a good night sleep. NIGHTS!



Friday, September 10, 2010
@ 12:57 AM


Took 1 hour to memorize the bloody formulas and another hour lazing, not studying the theories. Go for QEM test and think i can do it? Went home to rest for the day. No studying for me.

Beautiful came over and she study while i rest. Heng she sleeps too if not she will prolly hear me sleeptalk. Watched a movie and out for dinner. Sent her home and i am home!

I need 13hours of sleep nett. calculating the interest rate i need like 15hours - 16hours of sleep!!



Thursday, September 9, 2010
@ 7:41 AM


Tried to study but nothing just gets in. Too tired i went to sleep. Thinking it will be only an hour, i set alarm and asked alvin to call me when he is sleeping. Just nice he is sleeping 1 hour later.

My body told me to wake up and check the time and !!!! its 5.45am. i was like siao liao siao liao, a whole module to memorize in like 2hours. End up i 1 hour memorize then lazy memorize. Should be more than enough to do well. Under the stress later i dunno if i will forget them.

After a power nap of 3 hours. I am refreshed now!



@ 12:47 AM


HOHOHO 2 more papers left. my quality engineering and management paper is like 9am, 8hours away and i have not studied for it. Don't worry i am ready to burn the paper and drink it down. HAHA.

Its been a amazing 8th September. I'm officially attached ^^ to someone. Prepared a surprise for her and woots it works. HAHAHA. so happy now =]



Tuesday, September 7, 2010
@ 11:19 PM


studying in club sucks alot lor. the bangala clean the aircon for a good 4 hours plus. It really sucks.

Well bad things over and i met beautiful and off for dinner at hougang. ahhh! i am damn tired. tomorrow got lesson and exam. thursday got exam. shagg!



Sunday, September 5, 2010
@ 5:56 PM

i gonna update on 2 days. Saturday and Sunday.

With jiawei coming my house to dota beside me, how am i to study. First table no space, Second it is so tempting! End up nv really study.

I went to RWS(Resort World Sentosa) to watch Voyage De La Vie. Its awesome i swear. It really got me so excited i was sitting on half the chair leaning forward waiting for something to happen. Get ur tix and watch, got student price.

Met up with beautiful then went got Yan Ming's brother chalet. Met up with Jo, Yan ming and some other people then we slack around the whole night and morning.

Sunday.

After slacking the whole morning, i had to go to holland village to do CIP. Man i was so tired i slept at the void deck waiting for things to happen. Did abit of stuffs and so tired i knock out for 1 hour plus. I AM TIRED!



Saturday, September 4, 2010
@ 2:43 AM



For 5 minutes i wanted to just stand up and pack some clothes leaave this god damn house. You are my mom yet you are not being one. Those who know the plight i am in now, i guess only a few, know what i am facing now.

You rather spend your time outside in temple, you rather spend your money on temple activities than on your kids. You say all you do is for a better life for yourself and us. I don't see the good merits benefits i won't believe it. I was brought into buddhism, i trusted it. I trust that it will sink you so deep into it that you live your life like a pious buddhist. Everything you do must be buddhism, everything you say must have a link to buddhism.

You rather use the time you have to close deals and just that 1 bloody deal then the money goes to temple and other association. All you complain to me is lack of money and presses me to get that damn scholarship thingy. You know how fucking stress i am?

I lack of the care and concern and love given to me. Dad have 2 sons already, one has mental disorder, one has his own family and business, he don't need me, he loathe me, i am like a subsitute for my deceased brother. He likes his only daughter, my sister. You my mother always say you love me so much more than my sister cause i know how to think whats right and wrong. Now that i don't greet you anymore cause i don't even feel that you are my mother, you say i don't need you.

If i don't need you cause you say i am old, then why do you care about me so much? Then here you are saying i think i am already old and already showing my true colours when i am not even 21 yet. What are you trying to say? one moment say i am old enough, don't need you, one moment you say i think i am old.

You said you have nothing to do at home so you stay at temple. You always use me as an excuse and ask me help you lie so you could stay in temple longer. Look at you, tired and worn out, sleeping at 2am waking up at 7am. You could come home early do some house work and not throwing everything to dad. You could sleep early. you spend your time doing things related to buddhism stuffs which you believe too much, some of which are totally unnecessary. You make yourself tired for something not necessary. there are things more important to do yet you choose to ignore them.

Cause of you choosing to come home late to go temple and not trying to close anymore deals, you made dad more pissed that he have to do housework and he vent all his fucking anger on me. What the hell am i here for? Your tool? his punching bag?

One day i will really want to walk out of this god damn house.



Friday, September 3, 2010
@ 11:06 PM

It sucks!!! my aeroma cui already, cui already!!! oh crap.

Nevermind, felt so much better after watching a movie with beautiful and had a wonderful dinner and dessert with her.

Tonight i shall play dota and reward myself for surviving 1st week. HAHA.



@ 1:43 AM

Every new Semester
After first week
After second week
Before the mid-term test
During the mid term test
After the mid-term test
Before the final exam
Once get to know final exam schedule
7 Days before the final exam paper
6 Days before the final exam paper
5 Days before the final exam paper
4 Days before the final exam paper
3 Days before the final exam paper
2 Days before the final exam paper
1 Day before the final exam paper
The night before the final exam paper
1 Hour before the final exam paper
During the final exam paper
Once walk out of the examination hall
After the final exam, during the holidays



Thursday, September 2, 2010
@ 8:44 PM

Shagg, alot alot to study yet only 1 day left. SCREW aerospace materials.



@ 1:53 AM


This coming saturday i am going to RWS(resort world sentosa) for a circus performance.

Its Voyage De La Vie


About the show
“Voyage de la Vie” or the “journey of life” is a story of a boy’s metaphoric journey, or a rite of passage before he becomes an adult.

Enter the world of the mysterious Lantern Keeper, the charming Crystal Cat and the mesmerizing Diva along with extraordinary inhabitants. Explore the journey of the boy on an adventurous search to discover his destiny. An unforgettable experience of magnificent sets, glamorous costumes and amazing circus feats awaits…

A circus theatre spectacular, the story is told through song and dance, combining with the energy, physicality and athleticism of circus arts, resulting in a contemporary cutting edge performance art form which fully engages the senses and keeps audiences on the edge of their seats. The first circus theatre spectacular ever to be created in
Singapore, it presents an international cast of circus stars brought together from 16 countries



@ 12:11 AM

Woke by an unexpected morning with a random conversation and random intention. LOL.

met Kel and his bro along with peng jie for breakfast. Funny thing is me and kel ending up eating pastamania while darick and peng jie eating food culture. so much for breakfast together.

Went school to do a last minute revision and go for Stats paper. :/

met up with beautiful at AMK library and had dinner. Change my samsung jet for a nokia E71.

someone is tempted to buy a new phone which we both like.. however its in a cui condition.

1 down 4 more to go!!! Gambatet!



Wednesday, September 1, 2010
@ 11:58 AM

thats practically how i was feeling last night before i sms to sleep.


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