dunno how to describe today lesson..
jus pure boring like an element..
went for lecturer meeting..
it started and end aruptly..
somehow it ends early like 6 plus..
but still?
late for training..
everytime i am late for training,
i still go,
but i don feel like going..
firstly it sucks to hear ppl saying ah he is late again..
meeting again..
wat meeting is it?
got such meeting ah?
why so many meeting?
pls pls pls
for now don ask me to choose,
MMEC or Dragon Boat.
i am trying to cope..
if i seriously cannot cope i will have to drop DB.
unless i can find someone who is better than me,
and can replace me as a comm in MMEC.
or i am being kicked out of main comm..
i remember making a promise to cope with MMEC,
with all my cca and studies.
i have been warned by them that it is going to be tiring,
but i still choose to have a 2nd cca DB,
and a 3rd skating..
skating is not a prob cause its not taking so much time.
but DB is.
i can't break my promise to them,
(promise is meant to be broken) its BULLSHIT!
i am already feeling guilty for going late for training..
i am trying to take up my own personal time to make it up.
i was kinda feeling shyt throughout e training..
real shyt..
after training when everybody go home.
i stayed back in DB club to do weights,
wat they did, i missed,
i payback after training...
end around 9..
i am real dead beat..
if i am realii pulling the team down,
and u think i shld quit DB,
pls tell me.
no appetitte to eat dinner,
sry mom made u cook.
saw u before meeting..
it leaves me rather cheerful during e whole meeting..
duno why somehow u jus cheer me up.
when running i was feeling rather shyt.
but each time i ran pass u.
i steal glances at u,
telling myself u are infront of me.
it actually bring a smile to my face unknowningly..
i made a thingy today.
its call abigram?
i hope one day i can actually give it to u..
i wish to cry out.
i wish for this kind of suffering to end.
i wish for someone to be there for me,
i wish it is u.
LASTLY I WOULD LIKE TO WISH BRO KIEVE A
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
