Its Your Decision.
Regarding some matter few days back, but i decided to only blog it out now. U stay at the east , while i stay at ther west. I have actually decided not to have any more connection with PKSSS sunday school matters or people. but somehow only those handful of people i still say hi to and keep in contact. You are among one of them. But when u had ur baby, u seems happy enough having him. While on my hand i am busy with CCAs and studies, thus neglected u. As many people know, i don share my problems alot so when i have i don usually share. You used to share with me, i used to give u advice, but somehow its been turn on deaf ear. Well its ur choice and ur life afterall and u live it ur way i can't force u or control ur life. so i actually let u decide if u wan to still continue to treat me as ur elder brother and confide in me.
I've been tired recently, mentally. I trust nobody around me except Ever. But i still don share my problems with her. Ironic right? I can ask people to let go, forget the things that happened, drop the memories. But i can't do that myself. I can't help it whenever i see u with the freak. i do not know who you are in a relationship with, but i can't help it but to assume that freak is your date when u 2 are always tgt. Why a freak? WHY!?
She is afterall not the one i am looking for, she is just a object to allow me to shift my attention to. But it is gonna hurt alot of people if i continue on. When can i learn to fully let go?
Are my juniors gonna appreciate my time in going back to help out? Or am i thinking too highly of myself that i can still help them? I've lost touch in music since some time back, i've stop learning piano, flute or drum. though marching i can still manage abit.