I promised Lawrence to help him kickstart his blogshop, but i myself is blocked up by so much stuffs, that i have been procrastinating things to do. i wan to study after school but i end up stressing myself up and rest, i wan to study at home and end up watching show. Hopefully i can rush things by this month. 

U told me that confessing that i like someone is not shy or shameful, i confessed to u and began holding ur hand and we walk with our fingers locked tightly. But i woke up from the dream in the end. When i face u i just do not have the courage to tell u anything or to even hint u. I know i will regret if i don say, but i will also regret saying if i lose u. Do dream come true? 

I do not have the courage to actually go back to SBM, i do not know why. Even the recent vesak day, i did not go back there. i do not know why i start to fear the place, i feel reluctant to visit the place though for 2 years i was very enthusiastic about going there. Is it a time for me to sit back and reflect on what i have done to myself?

recently the club have new members, The president did not discuss with us about the choosing of new commiette members, i dare not ask her about it or really let her know my displeasure about 2 member, whom few of us think that they can't commit themselves well. And just yesterday another friend of mine said something to me that i thought it was his fault, but i dunno why i don dare talk to him. Its his fault but i did not confront him but kept within myself.

Why do i lack so much confidence recently? what is the problem with me? I told myself that i am gonna work hard when i retained back in secondary 3. i wan to prove to the losers that they are gonna regret betraying their good friend for 3 years. i did it. its because of the fighting spirit that i landed myself in this state, a student studying for a Diploma in Aeronautical Engineering. But why have the fighting spirit flame extinguish? is it cause of all the friends and happenings around me?