I'm FUCKED UP!
I'm very very very very fucked up now.
Went studying at T3 mac and got chase out after i got the mood to study. Which is rather fucked up cause me and Mel had to look for another study location. Gloria jeans cannot, starbuck full, only staff canteen avaliable. 6 topics to cover for maths and i covered only topic 2 and don't understand topic 1.
Was doing fine till i received a fucked up call by mom regarding a war in my house again. I was happily doing my maths questions and feeling damn addict to solving topic questions and i totally lose it.
What more fucked up is, i tell myself to try to avoid smoking this MSt period and i just smoked like half a pack in 2 days. Why must this bloody war be now, in the midst of my MST, my birthday coming also no mood celebrate.
On the way home from changi airport, my mp3 die on me, totally fucked up!
sit at jurong interchange sms-ing people and calling people to see if they can accompany me at some void deck or some place to rest. But to no avail.
What fucked up is my 2 phones were stolen recently as a result, losing alot of contacts.
While thinking i glance to this block of HDB and remember a primary school friend, i still rememeber which floor and unit she stays and somehow her house phone number. Rang her up and thankfully she just got home. Talk for awhile and still can't find any friends so i went home.
Sitting infront my lappy trying to do something yet, i am so affected by the war outside my bedroom door. _l_
Some people say the first love is always the most memorable one. Is it true? i can still remember alot of things we did and talk in the past. but was that relationship a puppy love or really my true feeling then? i can still remember quite clearly. even though i was like primary 3 when i met her, try to get to know her and so happen to be in the same class in primary 6. -laughs-
how i miss my childhood times when i know so little things to be too bothered by.
