It feels like i am giving you stress. I know its tough on you. I'm sorry for creating this mess unknowingly, i could have contain the situation better. Regardless of the answer, i won't change the way i treat you, look at you or talk to you.
After thinking for some time on my way home, i find that i am pretty abnormal. I have split personalities which i am totally aware of. But sometimes the personalities seems to mix and match themselves. Up till now i have 6. Crappy, Stern, Lax, Sunshine outgoing, Unstable. The 6th personality seems to be the Random with a mixture of the 5 personalities.
I do not know how to explain. Prolly when i am able to explain, I can make you feel confident about me and you will know of the change. Until then you won't be hearing these words "i really like you, can you be my girlfriend?" not that i don't like you anymore. Its just me who want to realized which is the IVAN whom you like and will entrust to.
When i am ready i will propose to you in a different and special manner. Confidently saying these words out "I REALLY LIKE YOU, CAN YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?"
The 6 or 7 Ivan will fall apart and reform back into the single true Ivan.
