As much as i wish that i can ignore you and drown my sorrows with alcohol and stuffs. I still hope you will give me a call, drop me a text, ask me out. I want the truth yet i can't handle the truth. I have never learn to accept the truths standing infront of me. I want to scream, i so fucking want to scream so loud that everything will crumble under my roar. I so want to punch everything down till no building or structure is taller than me. I want to hug you so tightly again. I just need to feel loved and cared by someone.
Can you lie to me? My heart can't take it. I dunno how long i can accept this truth till. I've been telling myself i must be strong infront of you, i can't let you know i am so easily beaten down. I lost the motivation to stay strong. You were my motivation, now i lost you. My heart sank with tears tears dripping down everytime i see your face, everytime i think of your face.
I just need alittle support from you, but i dunno how to get it from you now. I'm not tired of trying, i am not tired of getting the same answer, but i am tired and scare of getting the same feeling all the time.
i want to talk to you, i want to see you, i want to do so much things with you, but i don't want to feel like i am bugging you, i am stressing you, i am forcing myself on you. I dunno what i want also. please do not give up on me during this period of time. i will suck it up and be strong but i need you to be there to help me tide this through.
