Excused myself from FYP today, expecting a tiring night from halloween. i was early and brought my lappy with me to watch movie. My make up took only 5minutes and well i waited from 2.30 to 6.30 before heading out to my respective station. Great laughs at some gay guy to compensate the time there waiting. Pretty fucked up to bully the gay boy, but who cares, i am feeling fucked up now and i don't care if i am seen as a fucked up guy.
Changed into my costume and felt funny wearing the boots, it felt like tiny stones in between the boots and my socks, but i was too lazy to bother. Minutes later i felt something crawling up my leg and i thought was just the table cloth, to my horror my boots were infested with ants, commando ants. Lucky for me they seems to have been starved for a week, no energy bite me.
Today job was more of a chore, The night sky is so bright element of darkness couldn't be put into play nicely, So many fucked up idiots who do not understand english or their own language "NO FLASH PHOTOGRAPHY" They think they are braved and go for the ride and gave me a few punches. They think they are funny and cool to act like a bloody joke.
The flashes caused me to fall off the tram and into the bushes, lucky for me the bushes somehow acted like a spring and pushes me back upright, however i was literally flashbanged!
Halfway through, a disturbing image flashed in my mind, i got a spilt headache almost immediately, i couldn't help but to drop you a msg of concern. All i got back was a message that felt like a harsh treatment reply. I was devastated. I don't deserve this really. That moment i felt that i could take it no more and wished i could stand infront of the tram and get banged and get serverly injured and stay in hospital and cut off from the world.
After work met kelvin and grace at 302 @ 2am for supper. I miss those time when we just go out have fun, sit down chat and smoke. left at 3.30am and walk my way home. by the time i reach home freaking 4am. on the way, at 2 different location i can feel them following me and disturbing me. One of them was obviously tapping my bag, i could freaking hear the taps and felt it on my bag. Another one was just following me. Well i am too tired and fucked up to be affected.
sometimes i really wish to say them out, but i can't bring myself to say.
Well for those who try to talk to me in msn, show me vids to cheer me up, dunno why am i so fucked up recently, i don't really want to say, but if you do really want to know what is going on in my life right now. www.theycallmeshortlikesbeautiful.blogspot.com is the answer.
here are pictures of chloe and magret camwhoring with my webcam.
its 5am i should get my rest already.
